Over the last 17 years of trying to identify and monetize a type of work that I would find both exciting and satisfying, I've made an incredible amount of errors! Before Human Design entered my life, I squandered a lot of money because I was making mental decisions instead of trusting my gut. I simply didn't know any better. A soup of conflicting energies also made it extra challenging as I repeatedly talked myself out of many plans I had heavily invested time into.
The silver lining is that I now understand why everything I did was wrong, why the good advice I ignored was right, and why I couldn't have just trusted that advice in the first place. The reason is because I'm designed to learn through my own trial and error.
Now I am doing a better job of intentionally leaning into the trial and error. It's because I now know that everything I do is just another learning opportunity to discover what works and feels right, versus what doesn't. And instead of running away from emotional turmoil, I now face it head on and work through it.
I forgave myself
Lately, I've been integrating and accepting that everything that has happened to date, has all just been part of "the plan". I can confirm this simply by reviewing my timeline in The Pattern App (Android / iPhone) which elegantly maps out the phases I'm moving through and afterwards I'm like... "ahh that's what that was about!"
Thanks to The Pattern App, I can see that I'm currently in a period where I'm not yet meant to solidify my direction. I translate this to mean that I'm still in a process of gathering information, skills, trial and error experiences, and transforming my Gene Key shadows. Between this perspective and securing stress-free part-time work on the side, I'm able forgive myself for the slow progress towards my goals.
Am I a Coach? My Sacral Says "No"
As far as titles go, I don't feel comfortable labelling myself as a coach. I'm not a business, marketing, sales, strategic, website design, or time management expert either. But I am passionately interested in the continued trial and error of all those disciplines. What I have found is that the 6 in my 4/6 profile likes to take ideas and merge them together to innovate a new digital product or process.
Am I a Mastermind Facilitator? My Sacral Says "Yes!"
Over the years I have come full circle several times to the idea of Facilitating Mastermind Groups. Recently, I observed a synchronicity of 3x random events within a matter of days and all baring the message "Host a Mastermind!"
The problem is, I didn't know what this message related to. Was it to host Hot Seat Sessions for the Manifesting Generators Community? Sacral Sessions for MGs? An in-person Meetup Group in my local city?
To find out, I created all three and straight away I was hit with anxiety instead of excitement and my energy disappeared. I realized in hindsight that I was incorrectly initiating big time!
Till this day I don't know why I received the messages to start a Mastermind at that point in time. Was it to draw my attention to my blocks? Perhaps. Nonetheless, I have faith that my life experiences will eventually lead me to step into that role.
Don’t know what a Mastermind is?
A typical Mastermind is a small group of 4-6 people who meet regularly to help each other overcome challenges by sharing ideas, advice, accountability and support. I find 4 people is a good number such that:
- Members bond deeply into each others lives.
- Members receive a decent amount of support each week.
- Weekly/fortnightly catchups don’t run too long.