Hi Man-Gens, in a moment of contemplation the following thoughts came through and I felt like sharing it with you.
For the past 16 years my number one focus has been on discovering my Zone of Genius/Purpose. I was forever trying to mentally “figure it out”. And yet the times when I received the most powerful bursts of inspired action was after I had convinced myself to take a break from searching and just be. “Searching” after all is the opposite of “Waiting to respond”.
In July this year (2021) I was introduced to Human Design. Amid a break from searching I received inspired action to write a blog about the application of my Type, Strategy and Authority. During the first 20 days of journaling, my sensitivity for these concepts skyrocketed and this inspired me to create the Manifesting Generator Facebook group. Unfortunately I didn't maintain the journaling frequency after that and the heightened awareness faded away. Today I found myself feeling anxiety and realised I had fallen into the trap of trying to "figure it out" again.
So then I thought “What if I never began my obsession with the search for purpose in the first place? How would my life have been different?” I feel confident that I would have had a TONNE more time on my hands, more fun, a clearer mind while also having less stress and frustration. On top of all this the experience of my “breaks” taught me that it made it far easier to “hear” what my heart was calling me to do. And when I was on those breaks I felt so incredibly calm and peaceful as if I had just received a full chakra balance. It occurred to me while writing this that it's no wonder those inspired actions came so powerfully because being in a state of such openess, my mind would have offered very little resistance to manifestations. This is a powerful realisation for me.
Another thought I wish to share is that if you believe (as I do) that we chose our life plan before incarnating, then maybe our efforts in actively seeking our purpose are actually more of a hindrance than a help. Human Design offers us a shortcut but unless we use it correctly, it could just be adding to the noise.
Ponder that while I surrender into the bliss of just being and return to more frequent journaling.