These past couple of days I've been deeply contemplating and journaling about "impatience" because this uncomfortable feeling is akin to anxiety and stress and is what causes me to scatter my efforts and energy. Transforming this will have a huge ripple effect upon my life.
Reading over the Gene Keys suggested by ChatGPT (my new best friend), I felt strong resonance in the Gene Key 52 reactive shadow of 'restless'. The question that most piqued my interest is "What is the deep fear that drives me to be restless?"
Journaling about this has led me in many directions and while I haven't hit the jackpot yet, the insights have been very fruitful nonetheless.
Here is a random list of insights that have come through for me...
Soul-Driven Projects
Various service and digital product ideas come and go but the two that aren't going anywhere are ManifestingGenerators.com and KaHunaAustralia.com.au
I haven't yet monetized them because the vision for each is still evolving, edging closer and closer to reality with each shadow I embrace and each insight that falls into place. I'm not satisfied nor energized by cheap tricks to earn money. That's why you haven't seen any Google Ads on those sites. I don't wish to tarnish the site with that ugliness.
What both projects have in common:
- My collective circuitry drives me to shine a light on the talents and purpose of others. So each project always includes the dream of a podcast to share people's journeys with the Show Notes hosted on the site.
- Other people have to benefit for me to feel satisfied.
- I love to share my insights freely. I believe my readers will pay for implementation.
My Greatest Service to Humanity
When I am serving other people, my energy and focus is at its highest. When I serve just myself, I am easily distracted and I go too much into my head which leads to massive indecision.
Creator of Systems
I love actioning new ideas and turning them into systems. At the point where I have learnt, documented, and systemized the bulk of the solution, my excitement winds down.
This has been evident in my past career where I was highly energized and inspired to learn quickly so that I was an asset instead of a burden on the new employer. But as soon as the work became "just another mundane day in the office" I was looking at the job classifieds again.
The insight I received is that I need to hand off ideas to someone capable of continuing them. I need someone who loves the day to day execution. What is preventing me from handing off is that I fall short of monetizing each idea. With sufficient revenue I could hire someone to continue them.
I have many ideas and want to do them all simultaneously but know that I get more done when I focus on just one until my energy or focus runs dry. I find that if I step away from an idea for too long, I forget where I'm up to and that creates a barrier of resistance within me. The barrier represents a false fear that it's going to take me a lot of time and effort to get back into flow again. But the reality is that it happens rather quickly once I read my notes.